SUICIDE OF A VETERAN



 


SUICIDE OF A VETERAN

Dedicated to Sean Leahy, my nephew

 

A Veteran

            Strong, outer presence

            Crumbling inside

 

Insights within

            Moments of clarity

            Authenticity with self and others

            Is interior strength possible?

 

Constant, relentless

            Visions, thoughts

            Tearing at the insight

            Breaking down strength within

 

Crumbling inside seeps outward

            The strong outer presence begins to crumble

 

“You would be better off without me…”

 

Offering the ultimate sacrifice,

The battle ends with gunfire.

 

Sara Fontana

December 3, 2022

 

 

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